today i woke up feeling like crap and i told myself i wanna timeout with him, you know like not see him for a week or two and see what happens.
i strike out options and came to a conclusion that 1) i'm not a longterm r/s person.am i? 2)i'm getting a little bored of this (uh whatever this messy thing is called) romance/relation. 3)something's missing.like by now we are used to how certain things go and the thrill is not really thr anymore.sure we still do crazy things but it doesnt give as much adrenaline as it used too. 4)i'm probably weird and insecure and selfish and bad and blahblahblah.
see its complicated? i think i need to seriously stop seeing him for a while and go out more with my friends and not think of him.mmm okay good plan.

anothor emo days and that gives me a reason to go shopping and make myself feel abit better :)
i wanna helium balloons, sunflower, dark chocolate, vanilla latte, glazed donut, greasy fried chicken and all other things that can make me smile.
gonna do more running swimming and situps. go go go.